At-tagged by A Certain Don-ut!

So, I was at-tagged by Don and the rules said that I have to share six weird stuffs about myself and then, tag six other pretty souls to share. Before I begin, here's the chosen six. *Drums-rolls* please. The brother and sister pair of Justin and Amanda. Barny Choo. Serene Siau or "Siao". Joseph Chang. And all the way from Istanbul, Jacinth! If you have shared before, just ignored this. "Why so serious" right?

So, here's my top six. But I have to say that its been really difficult to find any weird stuffs about myself. haha. And most of the six was digged deep from the past. I am healed already. Ha. But I will just share for the fun and laughters and for Don juan de marco.

No.1) During my childhood days, I love to play with wooden-peg. Yes, it must be made of wood. No wood, no play. And don't ask me how I play. Cos it was not possible to describe the procedure here. All I can say is that one need to be very creative in order to play the game. Ha. Just throw me a peg (rem, it must be wooden one.) and I will jude (show) you. I rem I was so addicted to it that one fine day, when I couldn't find my peg, I stole one from my neighbour to get my fixed. I was living at third storey and need to go down to second floor, without my slippers, to steal one like a ninja. It was truely satisfying and indeed, mad. I thank God Jesus helped me to kick out this crazy hadit or else, I might be in Buangkok resort and not compassvale rd.

No.2) Again, during my dark childhood period, I had this bad habit of clapping my hand over my mouth. First, it seems pretty alright cos its the way we were brought up. We were taught to clap our mouths when we said something wrong or bad, like vugalarities. But, soon, it became a bad habit for me. I need to do it like when i got nothing better to do, haha.., or when I was stressed. It was like a stress-reliever for me. Haha. Again, Tk God that He healed me or else this clapping my mouth plus playing with wooden peg really makes me looks like a crazy man or, in fact, not just looks like, but is already one. And is a creative one. Ha.

No.3) Again, the dark childhood period. I MUST drink 3 cans of coke everyday. Its a must for every meals except breakfast. But, now, I am healed. Tk God. In the past, our fridge looks like one from a provision shop, packed with drinks. But, actually, now still is. Just that its more of healthier choices like milo, green tea, yakult and yogut. No carbonated drinks, except, 100 plus. But I do drink coke once a while to get the needed sugar rush when I was moody and down. It helps. Hee...

No.4) The present. I need to/have to/must, cracked my knuckles on my fingers and toes. I will do it before I woke up and before sleep and whenever I feel like it. :)

No.5) Talked about toes. I have flat-foot.

No.6) I do get depress quite easily I guess, so I think its weird given my jovial personality. Or maybe, its becos of those grave-yard shifts! Aaargh, dame it! Lack of sleep=Lack of love. So please, when Im tired, leave me alone!!! (I will try to be fair here. I will let you know when Im tired k? Haha.)

So, that's all folks! Hope you do enjoy them. Have a nice day wherever you are.

Cheers.

Thank You! =)

Saying yesterday was great will be an understatement. So let's say it was Tremendously Timbre!!! And I was not referring to England 4-1 crushing win over the cat Croats! I mean Who cares about this win? The three lions will not win this coming world cup. They will not make me eat my words. But with the wily Capello in charge, Im in danger of eating them eventually. So I better make them abit tastier. Hmm..Actually England is not bad; but not good either. Haha. Alright, i shall stop mocking the Three Lions. Actually, I am not an anti-England fan. In fact, I do like them. But i just sensed that they are controlled by the bookmakers in England. So, I stayed the same. They will not win the world cup. They got too many fans and punters and hooligans for them to their dis-advantage. Thank you. Now, back to me and my friends!

So, yesterday, I gave myself a first present by taking a break from work! and it was very good! I enjoyed throughout the day and night! From morning devotion to running to shopping to dinner to drinks and music! What a Bomb!

So, dinner was at Miss Clarity with beloved siblings in Damien-donnie, Mad millicent, Prince charles and Nice, the Holy man,nic-wong! The fellowships was great and fun! I missed these times badly! Where we could just sit down and eat and laugh at ourselves and there goes our heads!

Next, we (Xcept the Holy man) went to spent the special night away at Timbre @ the arts house.
Wow, this place is cool man. And yesterday band was the Goodfellas, which, was Good! And Don n Co dedicated a song for me which took me by surprised! As the Goodfellas happily delivered Maroon 5's sunday morning to the bday boy. And, no bias here, it was their best performance of the nite! Haha. where everybody's there wishing it was really a sunday morning then so that they could worship God! Haha.

So, thanks Don for arranging all these. And tks for recommending me to Erdinger, it was indeed smoooooth. Haha. And to this place called, timbre. Nice.

And thanks again Don, Mel, Charles and Nic for coming and made last nite a special one.

The weather is good. The beer is smooth. The music is fantastic. But none of it could compare to the company that I have for last nite.

Thank God for your love and grace.

Beautiful. ( Hey Justin, Amanda, Ramesh and Sashi. We missed you badly last nite.) In Pink Floyd's words, wish you were here. =)

Its The End Where I Begin...(so move along.)

I realised I was so farting stupid to send that sms to her! And went through an unnecessary emotional night altogether. But you see, all I wanna do is to salvage this friendship! His love in me taught me to do that. If I still belonged to the world, I would be more than happy that she don't exist in my life anymore. As in,.. I don't get to see her la. Not anything more serious that that. And I would be most glad to not even care how she is doing in life! Hmph!

So, I sent that sms.
And she went all out to kill me.
Killed my heart and buried it six-feet under.
I had only me, myself and Love to blame for this insult! Ha!
But its ok.
Its ok.
If that is the least I could do for you now,
I would.
Goodbye, my (ex-)Lover.

Tried to break my heart?
Well, its broke.
But you see,
I am strong.

Cos what don't kill a heart,
only makes it strong.

Now I'm alive
and my ghosts are gone
I've shed all the pain
I've been holding on
The cure for a heart
Is to move along, is to move along
So move along.

Peace I leave with you.
My peace I give to you.

I am free from you!

Super Sunday! (A long post, but definitely worth reading it.)

It was a miracle! It had been raining faithfully for the passed few days but there was no rain during the run! It only came back to pour heavily again after the run (at 1300 hrs) and drizzling before it. (It stopped obediently at around 0550hrs) Amen man! I had been praying for good weather during the run after seeing all the rain actions for the passed days. (Im sure all Christian runners did pray as well.) And I prayed specifically on Sat that "Lord, I pray for good weather during the run. No rain but good, cool weather. Yes, ..not hot as well. Hee..." I thought I asked abit too much. So I said "Lord, let Your will be done. Anywhere, I reckon it will be quite fun and cooling to run in the rain as well. So, no problem, Father :) " But see how loving is our Father in heaven! He stalled the rain for us so that we could enjoyed our run and His childrens able to go to His churches without any hassle. Thank You, Father, for Your love towards us. (And con't to teach us how to love like You do, Father.) And this verse came on my mind as I reflect how He stalled the rain. "This is an easy thing in the eyes of the Lord."- 2Kings 3:18

Anywhere, I completed my half-marathon, which is 21km, in 2hrs 18mins 49secs. And I am very satisfied and absolutely delighted with my performance! I thought its quite impressive consider that its my virgin run! And I received my first ever "Olympic" finisher medal after this run and many predicts that more is to come from J-U-DE-Man from the city of Jude'rusalem. Ha. (Sorry, I am not show-boating, just too happy! - Usain or rather, now, should be called Usay "Lightning" Bolt )

And next up for *Usay "Light-ing" Boat aka J-U-DE-Man is the year end BIGGEST event, Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon. He will be competing with himself in the punishing 48km run event. Will he choke in this big stage? Highly unlikely. Haha.

And besides Thanking God for the good weather, I would also love to thank God for enabled me to finish the run. And it really helps when I meditate and claiming His promises for me (and for all His childrens) while running. "He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. I will run and not grow weary, I will walk and not be faint."- Isa 40:29,31. I injected life to myself in these verses during my run, esp after the 14km mark and into the difficult trail run.

Thank God for bro Matthew Wee who helped to arrange for me to put my bag in bro Phuay Hee's car, and Tk God for Phuay Hee who sent us to his place for shower after the run so that we could make it for main svc on time or at least, don't missed it. (But we missed it altogether. Ha. My fault as I got mixed-up with the meeting place after the run. Its true, my mind not functioning well after running 21km. haha.) Therefore, also tk God for both of them who showed brotherly love towards me, not only they forgave me, but also fed me. Yes, we went for small makan at Bedok hawker centre before we had our showers.

Also tk God for Donnie "Seed" who helped me to contact Phuay Hee when I lost them in both the race and in the meeting place after the race. Tk God for such a wonderful brother in Donnie who also invited me to watch Money No Enough 2 for free in the same afternoon. I was tired after the run and the thoughts of "Letting fly an aeroplane" on him was firmly on my mind, but I just couldn't bring myself to do that. This is not the way to treat a true friend. So I chose to honour him by honouring my words and went for the show at Expo, even-though I was already at home-and-dry and there was thunderstorm outside. And even if I braved through the "cats-and-dogs in the form of rains", I will be late and missed part of the show. But this friend and brother is definitely more than the show. So, Donnie, yesterday appearance was for you and you alone. Ha!

Tk God for my Mutton, Joseph Chiang, who came out from the hall in the midst of the show just to usher me in to my seat. (But, perhaps, you could make a call to the Muttons til Midnight in the "You-Complaint" segment and complaint tt this certain man caused you to miss part of the funny-good show! Haha.)

Also, a BIG thank you to this kind soul who lends me his mobile phone when I was in Marina Square and needed to contact Phuay Hee to let him know that I was ready to be "pick-up". Though i dont know your name and couldn't remember ur face, I really tk you for being my good Samaritan!

So, I realised yesterday was not just about the run and the race and its endurance and perseverance. Its more than that. There was His love, His grace and His mercy. And He is the same God yesterday, today and forever more. His love for all of us remains forever.

*Why called Usay Light-ing Boat : because I am the Light of the world and of the run. And Jesus Christ is my Noah's ark. And on a lighter note, I love Insain...no i mean, Usain Bolt. He is so cute and so good! In fact, all my siblings who watched the track event loved him! Esp, my second sis! She became his No.1 fan. Full of smiles, laughters and excitement whenever she saw him in tv. Bolt is not good-looking, i think. But he is very charming.

So, non-good-lookers out there, We have Hope here. Haha. Just kd. Why so serious?

As we all know, God looks at our hearts, not our looks or bodies. Looks and bodies fades away...but hearts continue to grow. Whoa,..profound right? Should be able to make it to the book of Proverbs. Haha...

And Love Will Come To Us

Last Sunday, I received a call from an ex-colleague. And I was delighted to hear from him again! Like me, he is a child of God, who is rooted and growing in Christ. And what's more is that he is also charming, good-looking, well-built, able to tame his tongue, always bold enough to proclaim God's Name to our other colleagues(pre-believers) and received mockings from them. And, He is still single and available! This brings us to our next topic.

Seeking for love.

We have known each other for more than 3 years now. And he remains unattach. But I know he is always on a look-out for his "lost-rib". Fast-forward 3 years, he is still searching for her and is now, desperate. (This is what we agreed and confessed. We re desperate. Haha)

He shared that he did make some new friends(all ladies) and the way he approached is daring to me. Full of courage and confidence I must say. Which he shouldn't be lacking due to his good-looks he received from the Lord. However, after listening to him, (on how he approached the ladies) I felt uneasy. And because we are brothers in Christ, I could speak to him and he knows where Im coming from. I shared with him that I felt the Lord said.."Do not fret..." and He wants us to continue to wait and hope in Him, to present us our "lost-rib" so that we will be complete. Therefore, its totally unnecessary for us to seek her intentionally, especially via dubious methods.

I really thank God for our conversations. Because He was right there with us. And I realised that He likes to use a certain way to speak to me. And that is through my 'preaching' to others. Whenever I 'preached', I received preaching from the Holy Spirit as well. The words I shared speaks directly to my heart. So I guess this is what He meant by "Iron sharpens iron".

This was how we conclude.

We will surrender our life to Him.
Especially our love life.

We will fret not.
And we will not seek one intentionally. (as in like a desperate)

Its a risk.
But we are willing to put our trust in Him,
Who is good and faithful.

And I continued.
The Lord knows me much more better than I do.
And if He knows I needed one,
will He not bless me?
In His special way; His special timing.

And I am willing.
To be single or married.
As long as its His plans for me.

I told my friend.
You are a prince.
Not a desperado.

And love will come to us.

"Be Patient With Yourself"

"Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it." - Mat 7:13-14 (even fewer, who after found it, willing to walk and go in by it.)

If we are going to live as disciples of Jesus, we have to remember that all efforts of worth and excellence are difficult. The christian life is gloriously difficult, but its difficulty does not make us faint and cave in-it stirs us up to overcome.

These are the opening lines found in "My Utmost For His Highest", July 7 passage. And I totally agree that a Christian walk is tough and difficult. But we all should relished all challenges (in order to be God's holy people) in the name of our Lord. And we had received the motivation and the power we needed to overcome the world in our Lord's death and resurrection. I mean Our Lord,Jesus Christ had paid a hefty price in order to redeem us all. But are we willing to pay the high price of giving up our rights to live our lives back to God,Who loves us?

I struggled alot for the past few days. Struggled to be holy in my thoughts,words and actions. And failed. Inevitably, I was disappointed with myself. And sometimes, disappointment can be so dangerous. Therefore, I realised that Disappointment is one of the devil's favourite weapon when we failed to deal with it with God's love. Mr S.A Tan loves to use disappointment to draw us away from God or even,.. abandon God! That is why some of our friends had chose to leave God. Because of hardships and disappointments and also, believing in a lie that they are not worthy to be Christian. Who is worthy to be Christian? You tell me. We are not perfect. But if we are willing to repent and change for God, that is enough. And one day, I believed, we will be like Christ. However, this process could be a gradual one and might even last til we meet God face to face. But, take heart, He is love and His mercy remains.

Back to my story, I was really disappointed and heard the devil's cries. He lied to me that The Way is really tough and I will not be able to change. So why not leave behind all the hardships and "foolishness" and enter the broad road where you will most likely be more happy as you can do whatever you like. Then God intervened. He encourages me and I told myself that I will not give up (transforming myself to be like Christ) because He never give up on me. And He said to me: "Be patient with yourself." And my heart stop condemning me and I could move on. (As my heart was condemning me, I could only stop and stare at the world and life. I could moved but only like a zombie, moving aimlessly. Therefore, I thank God that these movements wasn't long. Just a few steps but surely enough to scare me as I tasted how it was like to live life without any purposes. The feeling was terrible.)

It is true that I was too eager to change all of my old-self for God in a short time. I heed God's advice and realised that it works. I am changing inwardly everyday. Like we all know and I always like to say, "No one remains the same after meeting/speaking to God. And when God speaks, we will never be the same again."

Revelations came after my reflections (on what I have been through) and I realised that its good to have struggles and face them. Because after overcoming each struggle, we will grow in stature and wisdom. So, we all need struggles in order to grow.

Embrace them.

"You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the One Who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world." - 1 John 4:4

How Timely Is God's Words!

I was feeling abit uneasy. I don't know why. Or maybe I know. It could be that I am still feeling sick; Could be that I saw her last sun and even had lunch together with a group; Could be the appraisal that i just went thru yesterday. Anyhow, I just felt uneasy inside me. And my diet confirm that something is not right in me. Beside normal healthy meals, i went on a-junk-attack mission! I had a cup of marigold fruit salad yoghurt before dinner. That's normal. Had a bottle of grape flavour yakult after dinner. That's healthy! Helped myself to finish a three-quarter full tub Haagen-daz Green Tea ice-cream! That's foolish! Given that I was still not feeling too well! And then, had another serving of marigold yoghurt. This time is the peach flavour. (Two "yoghurt" is better than one.) Then, search for more junkies and found only two packets of "Fairprice" rolled cuttlefish. And I simply rolled one packet into my mouth, down to my stomach. Ha. Quite thirsty now. So drank a packet of cold Milo which gives me extra unnecessary tonic and further harm to my cough. Unsatisfied, I sms my sis to buy for me my craving snacks - Baby Star crispy noodle spicy flavour! Which taste like the cheap 20 cents "MaMee" but better. (Had to be, right?! If not, how to justify the higher price-tag!) Here she comes back home and my sufferings ended.(or just started?) I quickly opened up a packet of crispy noodle and dunk em into my horse mouth. Yummy. Left abit for my sis to finish a great move started by me! Surprisingly, she bought more than I asked for. She also brought home 2 packets of Japanese crispy seaweed - hot and spicy flavour! My fav Flava, which will hurt my throat without failed after one serving. And its spiciness will send the driver's high into my head. So, without any hesitation or second thoughts, me and my sis double team to finish one pack! Our movements and passing of that hapless seaweed pack was sweet, swift and smooth. It was near perfection. We just could read each others thoughts and ideas. If I were to use one word to describe the game. Whimsical!

By now, my throat is ultra dry. So i approached my mum to cut guava for me. And as always, she obliged with a mother's love. Still feeling dry, i made myself a cup of Lipton's "Iron-Buddha-tea". Sounds complex, but actually very easy to prepare. Just dunk an iron-buddha tea bag into a cup of hot water will do. After the tea, i felt better as it aids my digestive system. However, i do still felt that my stomach is bloated and exploding soon. Unless I could do a Pearl Harbour real quick inside the rest room. But it did not came. So I suffered.

Anyway, I proceeded to read God's words in my daily devotion book, My Utmost For His Highest. And the verse I encountered sets me free! Psa 37:8 " do not fret - it leads only to evil."

I must be fretting. My actions tells me so. All the uneasy feelings; All the eating of junkies. And they don't filled the empty void inside me nor they satisfied me. Only after I read this verse, I feel better. Breathe easier. And i just fret no more.

No fretting about my past. (my past relationship issue) No fretting about my present.(my current job and its appraisal) And no fretting about my future.(my future relationship and my calling) I just tell God that I will not fret about anything concerns me. All because He cares for me. Amen.

O God, I love You.